Well, what Im about to write about is completely contradicted by my title and avatar for this entry. But thats okay, humour is a wonderful thing to have in any journal.

Today, ( and yesterday actually ) something finally kicked into my head that I noticed a long time ago, but for the like's of me I dont know why a light bulb went off in my head now of all times. Anyways, I noticed that Adam is really mature. ( thought sure he goof's around like anyother teenage boy or girl and does goofy things and doesnt always have good judgment like most of us,) but he is pretty mature, and I dont think he notices.

I would say why, but thats a bit personal.

Anyways, maybe I'll tell him why this is sometime. Haha

Dear LJ;

I have come to realize that I am such a big worry wort. Haha.

Anyways, SOOO Christmas is getting closer, around...32 days? 32-31 I believe. So its getting really close. I got a gift for my dad, Im trying to find one for my mom, one for my Anna, I already have my brothers, and then theres Adam... I find that trying to get him a gift is actually the hardest just because I guess Im making it hard haha.... xD ahaha that was wrong...OTL damnit.

Ehem..

I think I got some ideas though, I'm going to have to think on which would be better though haha.

Also, I have to wait 21 days till...well... till a very special and fantastic day comes around. I can wait, but at the same time, I'm very excited haha. I got some ideas on what to do for Adam and I's one year :D''':

1. Go to Wrapper Jacks for lunch (maybe) since thats the first place we went to on a date"
2. I would like to actually just be with him and talk about fun times.
3. give him my gift" (shhhh)
4. Do what ever he would like to do next.
5. IDK what next...
6. Dinner"

Ahahahaaaa-" I'm so excited but nervous just because I know I'll be red on that day.

ALSO!!

PERCY JACKSON MOVIE TRAILERS ARE EPIC!!!

release date: FEBRUARY 12th!!!!!!!!!!!!! eheheheheeeeee~

okay, that shall be all. :D

have a good afternoon everyone! (though its already dark outside..)

Mmmm Im extremely happy right now. Well, I was yesterday and during school on thursday as well. Thats not the point for this journal though, well...sorta haha.

The point of this journal for today is, that I want to talk about someone in my life that I think doesnt realize just exactly how much they mean to me.

This person, no matter what, always seams to just.. I dont know, make me feel fantastic, weather I show it during that moment or not. This person never stops being themself, never stops to be selfish, seams to always laugh, joke around, and smile.

This person is just.... Amazing, I wish this person would understand just how much, I cant stop to... want to tell this person the same series of words over and over again till they fall asleep. Is that bad? No, I dont think so. It just means I want this person to know that no matter what, even if sometimes it seams like somethings up, I want this person to always remember and know that, I cherish and appreciate them.
That, I will never hurt them intentionally nore will I even want to hurt them. That I, will, even if its not right away, tell them what is on my mind or what is up. ...

And that, no matter what anyone says, no matter what happens during each day, I will love this person to the point that I could honestly say good bye to them with a smile if they had to move away.

So, to the person that I love the most.

Always smile


my secret

Well, for the past few days I've been feeling down for no reason.

It puzzles me because, well, every time I think about why Im down, there's no reason at all. I just am.. so my conclusion is, that my month is coming around the corner. Its the only reason that makes sense.

But....

( its long...so yea )

Sorta feeling alone.
Mad at myself.
Blah.

...
...
...
and I want someone to talk to..

I always feel better when I talk to people, even if when we talk its just about random things, it makes me smile..

did I mention I draw sad or none happy type things when Im  feeling down?

Well, yesterday I had a fantastic day" hehe

I got to hang out with Adam for almost an entire day and night :) ( Im counting school but who cares haha )

I had so much fun!! We played fooseball and watched a little bit of Fairy Tail xD yaaaaay haha.

OH! I also made us dinner last night! I was so nervous because Im more of a baker not a cook, so I was so happy that it turned out and that he liked it"" I felt so happy----- haha now I know I can cook if I just try.

We also watched Cars!! Mater is soo awesome. I forgot how funny he was.

It was an all around great night though" I got to cuddle and hug him and...it was just really nice" I really wish It didnt end.... I would have loved to hug him all night... haha, Im such a dork.

Well, thats how my yesterday went. :) Thanks Adam for coming over!!"

Yes I did bite my lip so I thought it was an appropriate title.

ANYWAYS

Had a great weekend this week! I got to hang with my friends Sonnjea,Mel,Lacey and Mel's BF Alex who is now nicknamed Apollo  as of today. ( McDonalds was fuuun ) Anyways, on saturday while having a great Halloween at Mel and Lacey's we all decided to have the great idea of watching a fricken scary movie called Trick or treat just before we actually go trick or treating ( yes I still trick or treat and yes. Im 16) as usual, I was scared like a child seeing their parents naked for the first time. ... and times that by 5.

So anyways, it was fun, so was trick or treating till some dude dressed up like a doll on his lawn said " hey kids, want some candy" THAT WAS SOME SCARY SHIZ NIZ RIGHT THERE!!

sooo after trick or treating we ate and watched more scary movies... OTL

OH! Also, on friday, I FINALLY finished colouring a picture that I drew and started to colour in June.... OTL I know, how awesome of me to get it done now.

So if yea wanna see it, here yea goooo

Mmmm I feel really sick today and I dont know why, my back is in pain, I have a sore throat, and I feel like someone has dropped a hammer on my head. Nnnn I hope I feel better tomorrow morning since I work, and I dont want to miss my shift.

Anyways, I have been listening to Michale Buble songs this weekend due to Taylor's CD she has of him that I only heard 2 songs so I thought why not.

On another fact, I subbmitted 3 things on my DA I want to post them on here but Im lazy to post them all so I shall post 1.



yes yes it's nudity, but its not like its a porn type so its allll gooood.

OTL I really dont feel well now..

Ah, I cant explain how great I'm feeling right now.

I got to hang out with Adam today till around... 9pm ish.

I felt bad though because his mom isnt feeling well, but none the less, it felt like it has been sooo long since I last got to be with him and be able to hug him and kiss him""" Mmmmmmm he also made me hot-chocolate haha, it was nice. :) actually, the whole day was nice.

We also went for a 2 walks, one while getting the mail, and the second one was a little while after dinner, haha he let me borrow his socks and his mom let me borrow her swet pants since it was cold out.

Adam is soo tall and just wow -blush- I just adore him soo much.

It was a great day, though, now I am rather tired and I believe I shall be going to bed early.

Night everyone!!

Uhm, haha, just felt like putting some lyrics to a good song before I started my blab.

So! Today I didnt do much. But I had a lot of fun Friday and Saturday.

( MY WEEK )
Yea, soooo that was my week. Haha, everything is in short form sorry OTL.

Im in such an odd mood at the moment. ..

Am I allowed to talk about how I feel about my looks? cause I would like too.. The reason?
( about mee now? )

anyways, thats what I wanted to say on that part.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!

Im so happy with todayyy!!

Fairy Tail anime aired and episode 1 was AWESOME EPIC AND FANTASTIC!!!

-breath-

I wish I could show you how I reacted to it xD lol. IM SO PLEASED!! Natsu looks amazing, Lucy is cute but pretty and Happy, well, he's a talking blue cat with wings that sounds like a child how can that not be cool.

SO SO PLEASED!!

OMFG YOU GOT NO IDEA!!!

I just downloaded it, got the ending and opening song's, watched it 3 times already, AND Im gonna watch it again xD IM SO HAPPY! lol, now whenever I say Happy it reminds me of Happy the cat. haha.

ANYWAYS!! BEST DAY EVER!! plus I get a yummy turkey dinner made by my Anna who also brought us donoughts yuuum.

SO EXCITED!!!


On a side note, about my week...lol

yesterday I worked and then I watched Super Size me on T.V , that movie still gives me the same reaction for things. and I tried to tell Adam to have a good week through a text but he's at his Grandparent's so I guess that was a bad idea of me to text haha "... OTL

On saturday I was at home doing nothing really. But what made me a bit sad was that I got a text from Adam while my phone was charging but I wasnt near it and when I saw I had one from him it was 9:30 and I felt bad... though I replied I think 3 times saying how sorry I was.... OTL...



FAIRY TAIL!!!


oh and Happy thanks giving"

Mmmmm Im really tired at this moment and upset at my mom a bit...

I really want to go on the Astronomy trip!! It is honestly a once in a life time chance!! I know I wont get to do it again, I really want to go.. I mean, ..agh, I wish she would just hear me out at least..

Also, I dislike it when my dad, or someone in general wants to change my art, like adding onto it, removing something or changing it in general with out asking me to see how I feel.

Art is important to me and it just makes me sad to see or hear someone talking about changing my art which Im proud of.

Anyways, I wish lunch was longer so I could relax more. I also wish that I wasnt so... hmm..... in the mood to hug and kiss I guess haha.

FUNNY MOMENT

Levi thrusted off the ground on his hands and back legs and OMG it was awkward cause Im his cousin but funny as shit.

Haha, so yesterday was rather fun. I saw ZombieLand, my first ever zombie movie. It was funny so and wasnt a scary zombie movie so I didnt mind it. Though... the trailers scared me sooo much. Haha

After the movie was fun too, though, again, I was actually really scared walking around at night.. So I sang and through popcorn to keep my mind off of things. I also made a fail popcorn grenade! LOL

Then after a while hanging out with Sonnjea at her house I got a text from Matt and I talked to him for a while and helped him out with something that was bothering him. Glad I did a good job of helping him. : ) Sonnjea said Im a good friend which I glad I am.

Haha, when we woke up today though, Sonnjea and I, we watched a funny fellow on the Comedy network.

There was this one part about sexuality and it went like this:

"Why are you straight?"

"I mean, we all ask gay people why their gay, but then it occured to me, why are we straight?"

" I mean, I know why Im straight. I dont like the thought  of humping a guy and having my balls knock around with his"

XD it made us laugh so much!! I swear, I want someone gay to say that to a friend of mine. I would love to hear how the conversation goes.

After that we had yummy pancakes and then once we were done we went to get changed and I showed Sonnjea my Halloween Costume. Haha, I felt so shy in it and I will need to wear some shorts underneath just so I know that Im safe from having my underwear show somehow.

OH!

Then we made Alien sims xD it was soo fun.

Anyways, I had a great time. Haha.

Hello thereeee~

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: )

P.S- Adam, if you are reading this, thank you for hanging out with me for 2 days this weekend. I enjoyed myself and I hope you did too. See you later!!

Aaaah, listen to this song while reading if you want. I just really like it haha. ( to bad it's not a girl singing then it would suit the mood for me haha )

Anyways. I've had a really great week at school. : )

( ADVENTURE TIME )
and no this isnt sapposed to be an emotional entry, Im just in a really good mood at the moment and Im having 'realizations' due to awesome Root-beer haha. ( I put realizations in  those weird line things because I forgot the word I really wanted to use.)

ANYWAYS!!!

night everyone!!

Had an interesting but weird day at school today.

First I got to school at 7:10 or 7:15am not really sure exactly but around there.

Then I was at a table all by myself till 7:55 or just a few minutes before 8. Glad I had company.

Haha, then I had Earth Science with Taylor and my gawsh was it funny, but perverted.

We got on weird topics just from our vocab word " Hardness" lol, and then I said our other vocab word "taste" which maybe I shouldnt have said after we talked for a bit haha.

Oh!! and then when started talking about flirting cause she wanted to know how I flirt " I do not know how to do it when I want to. Apparently its easier when you dont notice you're doing it, but anyways, from there I talked about how I really like hugs and how I hug for a long time and how she says Adam must like it and then I was like " aaaah I dont think so haha" and after that I went on about how I really wanted to hug him yesterday because he looked reallyyyyy----- nice and she was like b'awww and then I was about to say something but our teacher interupted, haha maybe its a good thing too, it had to do with certain things that can be embaressing if someone randomly hears.

Anyways, it was amusing.

So was lunch time actually, I wont get into it but ahahaaaaa, funnyyyyyyy-.

Well, right now I feel out of iiiiiiiiiiiit- and Im in a very.... hmm whats a good way to put it...

lets use the word " mentally " needy.

Mwuahahaha lets see what people think with that :P

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmhmmmm also, yesterday ( monday Sept. 14th) it was really really weird at lunch and I wont say whyyyyyy-

OKAY ART TIME

Okay I was gonna try to only post one thing a day ( which I failed at if you check the entry from earlier today haha )



BUT!! I have a reason!!!


I was reading this small story on the internet and there was this hilarious but somewhat really cute part in it thought its like some 18A stuff I dont know why Im using movie ratings.

ANYWAY'S the part of the story I like went like this:

"You should really put on some cloth's "

" Only if you do it for meeeee " he said as he nuzzled his nose under her chin.

"...arent you big enough to dress yourself?" she asked while looking down at Shawn.

"Noooope!! You have to do it for me " he said with a grin hoping she would give up and let him stay half dressed.

"...Is that soo.."she said softly while tilting her head " well then..!" she took off her scarf and wrapped it around his neck.

"...."

"Ta-Da!!!" she smiled while Shawn just sighed rather unamused.

" I look like a man whore " he said as he glanced down at himself wearing jeans and just a scarf.

" Well thats what happens when you let me dress you! "

" Well you know.... I dont mind being your man whore" he grinned while he kissed her cheek and then slowly pulled her into him.


And I bet you kinda know where it went from there.

Well thats all. JUST WANTED TO SHARE!!!

Haha, just thought it was kinda funny and cute.

Thank you.


: )


I am so thankful to have you smiling. I dont want it gone.


So thank you, for smiling.

♥

So, I talked to Adam.

It felt good to be talking about it.

I just... somehow I feel... like I want a hug? You know...

Word's are nice but, so is a hug and a smile.

Still, Im glad I talked about it. Like last night before I went to bed when I was talking to Taylor, she was right, its better to say it when you can even if you feel like you dont want to, cause if you dont talk about it sometimes bottling it up will just make you feel worse.

I dont, not one bit, like problems or like having things get worse cause I love seeing the person I love smile and feel happy.

Things just arent great when one person is upset. Or has something thats bothering them.

Maybe... maybe Im just afraid sometime's that I will say the wrong thing though I dont mean to. Im pretty bad a words sometimes.

I find picture's more expressive in my opinion.

Anyways, Im glad I get to see him tomorrow... though.... I have this feeling that once I hug him or something I may want to cry.

Cause honestly, all I really want is a nice hug.

EDIT: Ahaha, saw Jupiter last night. Oh and Taylor/Sonnjea I replied to you guys on twitter.

Okay.

Honestly and truly, I want to rant.

It will take my mind off thing's and make my night go by faster.
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Just... dangit!!

OTL

You know what, I dont want to rant anymore.

But thank's LJ for letting me get out what I wanna say right now.

Im glad its okay to be upset and confused every now and then.